Dera's Diary

Heyo, Today I'm wanna talk about fear. I actually got involved in this competition a little while back and the topic I chose to base my project on was emotion. Fear, to be exact. That doesn't really contribute to this story... I just wanted to mention that :) Anyway, fear is so natural. It's normal. It's expected in certain situations. But the thing about fear is that it limits you. If you're scared of something that's actually threatening to you, then your body, your mind will do its best to protect you. But when you're scared of something that isn't dangerous or of something that might actually be beneficial, you might limit yourself from progress. Like I said earlier, fear is natural and its important especially when you're in danger. But you cannot let fear control you. You cannot let the fear of rejection, loneliness, failure or the future stop you from doing what you need to or stop you from trying new, crazy things. You can't let f...

To all the perfectionists out there, I woke up on Monday less tired than normal. I go on walks with my mum every now and then and we have to wake up super early so that my mum's ready for work on time. We started walking and all of sudden I started feeling tired. My mum walks pretty fast (even though she'd disagree) and at first I thought it was just that. But the tiredness was deeper than that. I'm not being dramatic. I felt drained from the inside out. I felt tired of trying to catch up to my mum and tired of trying to be better behaviour-wise, cooking-wise and failing. And so my body responded in the only way it knew how; I cried. Before Monday, I would never have called myself a perfectionist. But after a conversation with my mum and some careful, but painful reflection, I realised I was beating myself down for my mistakes and my slip-ups which are completely natural. I also realised that it didn't start on Monday. What I'm trying to say is I've come t...

Dear diary, I'm gonna go a bit old school today and talk about forgiveness.  It's a pretty common term and so I won't try to give some textbook definition. I definitely haven't mastered forgiveness and I don't know anyone who has. But I've made a resolution to forgive people and to learn to forgive them quicker. Not because people always deserve forgiveness or because it always seems right. But like thousands of people before me have said, choosing not to forgive affects you a whole lot more than the person you're not forgiving. You're the one carrying the grudge. You're the one carrying the burden that is malice. And so even though forgiving people seems impossible and unfair a lot of the time, it's necessary.  It might seem like a risk sometimes too. You might forgive someone and doubt whether they're actually sorry or doubt their ability to stop doing whatever upset you. That's a risk we need to learn to take. You can...

Heyo people, My writing tank is empty at the moment but I didn't want to destroy the integrity of my one-day-a-week posting.  So here I am, reminding you all to love on yourselves. Watch some extra Netflix, sleep a little longer, read a good novel, take a rest day from your workout... Especially if you've been slaving away these past few months. Rest not only feels good, it's also incredibly essential. So get some. Also, wash your hands and stay safe! God bless. Dera

Happy new month!!! We have officially crossed over to the second half of the year. In the words of my mum, it's almost Christmas :) I don't really have much to say today or for this week. I think I might even have exhausted myself with my talking over the last few months -  can't believe I can say I have been blogging for months. Okay... If you're anything like me, you definitely didn't see COVID-19 meeting July. I didn't see it meeting the end of May honestly. But it's here. And you can't necessarily control that. But you can control what you spend this time doing. I feel like I can see the virus coming to an end, and maybe that's wishful thinking. I don't care. I'll keep declaring the end of this virus until one day it is gone. Until then, I choose to be hopeful when it makes sense to be sad. I choose to keep preparing for an exam I have been preparing for for the last six years. I choose to keep making new recipes and to enjoy al...