Dera's Diary

Hello there everyone, How's your week been? I hope it's been good. I think mine has been... I've gotten to a certain place that I'm pretty proud of. . I actually made some notes for this post, so you know it's gonna be good :) The latter of this year, I've found myself going a bit too far trying to please people.I've done anything crazy, but for a while I was constantly worrying about whether my actions sat well with people. Keep in mind that these people were my teachers. I'm in a new place and I've been struggling for a while with my relationships with my teachers. Not that I have bad relationships with them. I just don't think I have as strong of a relationship as I am accustomed to. And that didn't sit well with me. Not knowing where I stood with them did not sit right with me. I got a whole lot of advice but it honestly didn't help too much. Not until I had a serious conversation with myself. I want to be a good student. I want t

Hello world, Yes, I'm in quarantine for the third time this year. It's really crazy honestly, but at least I'm alive. I'm sure I can handle quarantine for two weeks. Christmas is coming!!! I love my family and I love spending time with them and Christmas is another important opportunity I get to do that. This year more than others, just getting to be with my family means a whole lot. Another thing 2020 is teaching us a lot about- spending time with those you love. It's like we're always aware of things until life make us really aware. I know that makes absolutley no sense. But like... we all know life is unpredictable and that you should spend your time wisely. But then COVID comes and shows us that life is REALLY unpredictable. We're always in a state of ignorant awareness until we can't afford to be. Maybe it's a human thing... or maybe just something I'm noticing about myself. I had another conversation this week about my thoughts on sci

Hello, I'm going to talk a little about the COVID vaccine since it seems to be a really hot topic right now. I was having a conversation with some people this week and they were talking about whether they'd get the vaccine or not, who should get it first and whether it was safe to be used. All these are pretty important questions. But I found myself thinking then and later when talking to my mum if I would even have a chance at getting that vaccine. A lot of developed nations like China, the UK and the US have reserved these vaccines by buying them ahead of time. And that's all good and dandy if you live in those countries. But at this rate, it'll take a long time for middle and low-income countries to get any vaccines. This whole fight for equity in vaccine distribution has been a conversation for a long time because low and middle-income countries know that the favour lies with those with the deepest pockets. Don't get me wrong, I think it's important for ev

Hey everyone, Don't know about you, but this week was exhausting. Not necessarily mentally seeing as I just came back from a school break. But physically, definitely. I feel a bit tired emotionally though, can't even really begin to explain that. I've been thinking a lot about the election going on in the US and what my preferences are and why those are my preferences. Such dissection is really important to me. This week.. I've been thinking a lot about grace. The grace that has been extended to me and the grace I want to extend to others. I am so glad only God knows me fully and that He is willing to love me despite all that He knows. But nowadays I feel a stronger need to extend that same grace to others. We're living in a time of cancel culture. Everyone is on fire to be an advocate, which isn't a bad thing. But that advocacy has also created a culture of downright meanness and hypocrisy. I shall elaborate... Nowadays, people are quick to say they are not