Dera's Diary

Good evening friends, I was really tempted to not write this week seeing as I just returned from two weeks of grueling summer school, but I was filled with inspiration and decided to share. Despite how exhausted we all got really fast, summer school was amazing. I went specifically for medicine, but there were students there for other subjects as well. We had afternoon and evening activities with my favourites being the talent show night (I sang in public for the first time in like a year and was legit shaking the whole time which was weird cause I normally don't have stage fright... but there's a first time for everything!), the walking tour of Cambridge (the tour guide was so good at her job), the Scavenger hunt (that only happened for like five minutes because we got caught in rain and hail outside), movie night ('the trial of the chicago 7' is sooo good) and sports day (my team won nothing, but I got a medal for my effort!). But I actually enjoyed the classes the ...

Hello world, It has been one crazy intense week of summer school. I have classes, basically want to be alone for lunch, have classes and then socialise with evening activities. I have fun but am totally knackered by the end of the day. That whole wanting to be alone thing is something I have noticed quite a bit this last week. Sometimes I wish I was more outgoing in the area of talking to people, but then sometimes I am with people and I just don't want to be. Here I can't really go anywhere alone, whcih I completely understand. But that somemes means I have to go places I don't really want to and it's hard too gauge who will want to go where because I don't really know anyone that well. But what I am trying to teach myself is to find a balance between not feeling the need to do stuff just so I can say I did and getting a healthy amount of social interaction. I will probably continue to have my lunches alone (just because that time also serves as the regeneratio...

Hello everyone, I hope we're all doing good. I heard a really amazing message on Sunday. It was talking about how sometimes, we've made agreements with the devil and sometimes, that is the reason why we can't move forward no matter how hard we try. Think about anxiety, or maybe even better, stress. I think it's very possible that we are a generation of people that have become so accustomed to stress that peace feels weird and foreign. I know I've definitely felt that way. Not because I want to be stressed. But when I am finally stress free, I feel guilty as though it's a bad thing. And this might not be the case every time, but Steven Furtick said it right when he suggested that sometimes we enter self pity mode, or stress mode because we think that if we welcome or cause the problem, then the effect will be less than if we were attacked; we think it'll take the pressure off. Its like when we expect the worst to avoid being disappointed. We stress and we...

Hey! I am that person who cries at all the sad movies and gets emotionally invested in shows and books. I recently finished watching season 2 of High school musical the musical the series and…. Wow. That’s really all I can say. The music was a step up from the first season (yes, this has become a review) and maybe more impactful because the main couple didn’t have a happy ending together. They broke up and I expected them to have enough time to reconcile before the end of the season and that didn’t happen. I think what pains me the most is that I legitimately don’t think they’re going to get back together… not with the way it seems the storyline is headed. I get why they had to break up. The girl was learning to be her own person (which is necessary) and the guy was being clingy and disrespectful in a couple of ways. I think what just breaks my heart about it was that the guy was going through a really tough time… his parents were separating and he didn’t really want any other thing ...

Helloooo, How is everyone doing?? I have been having a lot of interesting conversations this past week... Once I've processed my thoughts on these conversations completely, I'll try to share it with you guys. Anyway, I was thinking about how sometimes we are so sure and certain about things and we talk about them passionately. And then we grow, or we hear other points of view or come into contact with new information and we realise that what we previously believed was not very accurate or correct. If you're anything like me, at this point you become very nervous about sharing your new beliefs because you were so against them before and you do not want people to say you are a hypocrite. Or more importantly, you don't want to feel like a hypocrite. I think that the problem with this is that it prevents growth. One of the best things that happened to me was seeing an instagram post that was basically saying that it was okay to change your mind. And this is a reminder t...