Dera's Diary

Good evening ;) I went on a walk today... alone... and stared at the sky for like 20 minutes. I've been meaning to go out alone for so long and I haven't been able to because I didn't know where anywhere was (still don't really know too much) and I was negotiating with my mum (she finally agreed that I can go alone if it's daylight). I don't necessary love being alone all the time, but there are some times I really do enjoy it. I've been seducted by the idea of going on a walk alone for a long time; partly because I don't want to have to ask somebody to accompany me, but also to have that alone time to think. Anyway, for everyone who has been wondering, it was nice. I was looking for a certain path that I had walked before, but ended up seating before I got there. Not cause I was tired (I know you already assumed that), but cause it had a nice view of the park, and I didn't want to walk so far down so that I wouldn't have to walk so far up ;) I...

Hello everyone, How are we feeling? If your schedule is anything like mine, you're going back to school on Monday. I have to say, I feel pretty good; not because the Easter break suddenely made me love work and assignments... no, no, no. But because I feel prepared (mentally, emotionally, spiritually) for the term. It's going to be a full one, with exams and tons of deadlines, but I'm looking forward to it anyway. It's a pretty good feeling. I was really brainstorming what I could possibly write about today. A couple of things that have been on my mind lately came up, but I don't think I'm at the place of sharing all those inner stirrings just yet. What I have decided to talk about is nothing new: friendships - best friendships in particular. Ever since I was in primary school, having a 'best friend' was so important to me. In primary school, it was easier. I had two best friends and there were tons of other people vying for my attention (if you we...

Hello world, So, I’ve been doing a lot of college research lately. This is application year and all the shows and YouTube videos and experiences I've heard of have opened my eyes to the enormity and potential difficulty and stress of this season. I want to go to university and so going to the right one is incredibly important to me. Fortunately for me, the 'right' school is no longer synonymous with ‘it must be in the top 25 in the country’. I completely understand why going to a top school is important for a lot of people; maybe it's the prestige, or the guarantee of good education. The reasons can vary, but I do understand. However, I'm grateful that I don't see it like that anymore because in this process you have to strike a balance between being realistic and being hopeful. I want to apply to some prestigious schools.... but I want to make sure I'm applying there for the right reasons which to me would be ideal location, or great majors, social life,...

Hello world, I completely forgot to post last week which is really sad cause last week Friday marked my one year anniversary of writing on this blog. That's pretty crazy... For sure, this is one of the best things I got out of that entire quarantine period. I have been watching a show recently that touched on something so important. One of the girls is a writer and she lost her job and has been hunting for a new one. So she applies for this job and it looks like she's a shoo-in when suddenly they tell her she probably won't get the job because of diversity requirements. I think quotas for diversity are a double edged sword. But before I even get into that, she was really upset because she didn't get the job cause she was white. Maybe in an alternate world where white people didn't have the privilege they do, it would have been a valid argument. But because white people are privileged, her complaint about something that people of colour go through all the time, ...